continued … At precisely the same moment the explosion rocks my world I witness the most amazing sight I’ve ever seen.
I need to look more closely at the bird to satisfy my curiosity about what I had seen or, not seen.
I walk toward the mound of gray feathers where the bird once stood. I search for the bird. Strangely enough, I have a hard time distinguishing the bird from it’s surroundings.
It’s as if the bird has simply disappeared. Gravity simply took back what was its right to reclaim.
Its head and beak in profile lie flat against the sand, the black iris I looked into less than an hour ago when sensing its awareness, covered with an opaque film now, its lifeless eye and head and beak and neck inanimate objects attached to a mound of gray feathers lying flat, a few of the shorter feathers lifting in the breeze, like they’re holding onto some memory. The object of their lives, lies flat against the sand the absorption process having already begun returning what’s left of my friend the crane, to the earth.
I still ponder the event. When Jake fired the shot that rocked my world I had no idea that the bird would simply disappear.
That’s what I saw! And that’s what I take away from the experience. Death. It’s when life disappears!
WHERE LIFE GOES by kurt struble
Where it goes is
I don’t know
where life goes but,
it’s got to go
somewhere don’t you guess?
I’d hate to think it just
comes and goes with nowhere else to go
each life a tiny pebble and so it goes,
the vast infinite depths of
infinite sea of
Seems like it’s oughta be something better than that!!!
To Kill/An Oath
We should participate to the least extent when it comes to stealing other beings lives away … human or beast. It’s best to let nature take care of herself in that regard without our interference.
That’s why I thought Jake and Donna’s decision to end the bird’s life was adult thinking at its worst.
A little while later, while Donna cooks hamburgers on the gas stove inside the cottage Jake naps in his big easy chair the afternoon Detroit News crumpled at the side of his chair. I’m still looking down at my friend the crane. Finally, I rouse myself from these complex new thoughts about life and death that have entered my mind. Turning away from the crane I walk toward the cottage, then stop.
I turn, and while looking back at the crane I make a solemn oath to myself that I will never grow up and and become an adult.
And do you know what?
I never do.